They don’t always feel like a blessing. I know they are, these wonderful, amazing creatures who carry my DNA. But some days, I doubt whether this was the best life for me. Usually I see the fault as my own, not theirs. They are children and all the wonderful and terrible things that come with that. I am supposed to be the grown up, the one who keeps it together. But lately I’ve been so tired that I don’t want to be the adult. I want someone else to clean up the messes and make the hard decisions.
I think sometimes they make me angry not because they make my life difficult, but rather because they show me what I lack. I am jealous of their freedom to play and run, unencumbered by worry or pretense.
Then I remember, I am supposed to be a child too. My father has everything under control and I am free; if I would allow myself to release the anxiety and stop worrying about tomorrow. Instead of envying my children, I should join them.
Wise words, my friend! I’ve been learning to join the little ones this summer and ditch my agenda. I’m your FMF neighbor this week :). I haven’t seen you before, so it’s great to meet you!
Beautiful! I love how open and honest you are. My boys are exactly like that as well and I can feel exactly like that exhausted Mom too. But I agree we are children as well leaning on Him for all strength!
Thank you so much for this reminder. I need to remember to let my children be children. They are not bogged down trying to keep up with a schedule, and they shouldn’t be. I know they can teach me so much about being in the moment, and enjoying the simple pleasures of life. Thank you so much for your honesty and openness.
This is so full of wisdom and truth, Bethany…and I love the ice cream picture. Thank you for this!
#1 at FMF this week.
http://blessed-are-the-pure-of-heart.blogspot.com/2017/06/your-dying-spouse-330-this-is-how-you.html
Love that you share this with us. What a beautiful tribute and blessing. I’m #13 this week! #fmf
Yes Bethany, Yesssss! Been. right. there. And you know what I found out? It’s ALL good! (I’m at the #80 spot if you want to see where I am now)
Love this. I wish to be a kid with my kids too. I think they invite us there and we could come if we will, more often than we think 🙂
I love your honesty in this post because we all feel this way at some point.