It’s always loud at my house. Even louder than usual lately since we’ve all been living on top of each other with hardly a break. My children don’t really have volume control, so the noise is pretty much up to 11, all the time.

The noise of the world is loud, spreading its fear and chaos. My creative soul yearns to pour myself into beauty rather than destruction, to uplift rather than tear down. But my own inner voice is drowned out by the many things, people, and ideas vying for my attention and care.

How dare I write fiction when people are dying? How arrogant is it to pursue beauty and art for its own sake when the world is on fire?

Sometimes I feel like I have to be louder. But I can’t even begin to compete with the cacophony.

But then I remember that the wisdom of this world is not the way God does things.

When Elijah fled from Ahab, he was alone, he was afraid. He thought he had nothing to live for. He begged God to speak to him. He encountered a great wind, an earthquake, and a fire but God didn’t speak to him from any of those. It was in the silence after all the chaos that God spoke.

Our world is caught in a whirlwind of opinions. We have been shaken by pandemic and our nation set on fire with racial and political conflict. But I keep looking for the voice of God, not in those things, but between them.

In the lulls and voids between the headlines and the latest breaking stories. In the daily human interactions and the moments of hope.

I cannot compete with a volume of the world. News and social media fill our eyes and ears. My small voice won’t be heard even if I scream. I could try to scream louder, get more people to scream with me.

Or I can pursue the silence. I can retreat from the noise and listen for the still small voice. Then when the world has yelled itself hoarse, I can quietly share those words.